Journal: English

Growing up, the school subject of English was most definitely not my strong suit.  There were a few people and some past experiences that helped me to become who I am in English today. One person in particular was my high school English teacher.  Not only did I have her in 11th grade but also as a senior in high school.  But before I begin, let me give you a little background story.  My dad had been a teacher at the high school I was going to attend for 20 years, therefor I knew all the INS and OUTs.  I knew most all the teachers and who you want to have and who you don’t.  I knew all the upper classmen and was ready to take on the next 4 years as long as I didn’t get the one particular teacher, Mrs. Waers.  She was that teacher that either liked you or did not and your grade reflected it.  Unfortunately for me I knew she was not a total fan of my father.  Mrs. Waers was a hard core Democrat and everyone knew it, Obama and her cats were her life and of course my dad had to be the one to make a joke one time that put him on her bad side.

The first two years of my high school experience went great, my English teachers didn’t really push me and that was the only subject I was ever worried about and they ended up being a piece of cake.  But then junior year came along and Mrs. Waers name popped up on my schedule.  I was traumatized and scared out of my mind, I honestly was prepared to fail!

            I remember the first few days hating her guts, she was so rude, snarky and entirely too picky, I truly didn’t think I was going to make it.  I didn’t understand how it was possible for a teacher to be so rude until our first assignment.  I went home and was really struggling and had no clue where to start.  I hadn’t been challenged like this ever before and I was stuck.  I knew I was going to have to ask her if we could meet and oh I was scared.  After a day of building up the courage I finally went and asked if I could stay after and she said, “YES!!”   I couldn’t believe it she actually said, “Absolutely I will stay here as long as you need!”  From that point Mrs. Waers and I were super close.

Mrs. Waers ended up being one of the very best teachers I’ve had to this point in my life.  Mrs. Waers was many things, but one of those things did not include being a fool. She took everything extremely serious, including failing grades. If she found out someone was failing she would take it upon herself to do everything in her power to help that person succeed. Personally, she spent countless hours after school helping me memorize grammar topics and going through examples, and helping me become a better writer all on her own time. She was so dedicated!  About halfway through the first semester I realized how much work she was putting into helping an ungrateful kid like myself; I decided right then that I was going to try harder and make her proud of me.  The effort paid off.  I put in a ton of hard work and Mrs. Waers continued to help teach and guide me to love reading and writing a little bit more.

            Reading and writing are both very important things and are a big part of our everyday lives. If it wasn’t for my not so very nice high school English teacher, who really all she wanted was to help, I think I would have maybe given up, and stopped trying to better my writing skills. 

Journal Monday June 29th I believe in forgiveness

I believe in second chances and forgiveness. I believe that people make mistakes in life, and I believe sometimes you have to mess up to actually learn your lesson. I believe there has been so many times in my life I have done something wrong and learned from the mistake and there has been times where it has taken me more than once to learn a lesson. Humans are not perfect, and sometimes people expect them to be. Why is that? 

From research and past experience, forgiveness for humans is so hard because we are so stubborn. When a person is hurt or let down by someone they trust, their pride and self-esteem are injured. The expectations or dreams you had for that person are let down, they disappointed you, and you feel like you gave away trust which can be very hard.

But when you think about losing someone in your life you’ve known forever over one time of lost trust, you have to think if it really is worth it.

As hard as it is to give, forgiveness is such an important thing. It has the power to mend relationships and heal a broken heart. It’s needed on both ends of a situation. The one who is in need of forgiveness likely has a heavy heart about it and feels a tremendous amount of guilt. They have to set aside their pride and apologize for what they’ve done wrong. At this point, the ball is in the court of the one needing to forgive. It is a choice and there are unforgiveable acts, but in most cases a little time will lead to forgiveness.  And I believe in forgiveness.

If forgiveness wasn’t such a powerful thing, God would not offer that up for us. As a catholic we have confession to ask for forgiveness of our sins. If the high power above can forgive us for anything and still welcome us into his kingdom, how could we as humans not allow someone back into our life’s after a mistake?

I’ve always grown up in a house of forgiveness where my family has loved me unconditionally no matter what, and had to forgive me for many stupid things I’ve done as teenager or did as a child. When I was going through my rebellious teenage stage, I remember a fight my mom and I got into. This is a day I am not proud of, but unfortunately remember very well. I was so angry at my mom because she wouldn’t let me go do what I wanted to do and she had taken my phone away. I was so mad at her I said, “I hate you and you’re the worst mom in the world!”  Of course I didn’t mean it but I was angry, and I had never felt so terrible in my life. My mom really is the best mom in the world, anytime I ever need her she’s there with advice or a helping hand. I don’t know what I would do without her! I love my mom and even though I hurt her with some hard words she still forgave me right away and still continued to be right my side no matter what.  Life has been a crazy journey for me, but never once has my family given up on me and I would never turn my back on them. 

The act of forgiveness is so powerful that it can destroy relationships completely or make them as strong as they’ve ever been. We shouldn’t take it for granted. 

Journal Sunday 28th Creed free write

I believe in second chances and forgiveness. I believe that people make mistakes in life, and I believe sometimes you have to mess up to actually lean your lesson. There are so many times in my life I have done something wrong and learned from the mistake and there has been times where it has taken me more than once to learn a lesson. Human are not perfect, and sometimes people except them to be. Why is that? 

From research and past experience, forgiveness for human is so hard because we are so hard headed. When a person is hurt or let down by someone they trust their pride and self-esteem is injured. The expectations or dreams you had for that person are let down, they disappointed you, and you feel like you gave away trust which can be very hard.  

I’ve always grown up in a house of forgiveness where my family has always loved me unconditionally no matter what, and had to forgive me for many stupid things I’ve done as teenager or did as a child. Life has been a crazy journey for me, but never once has my family given up on me and I would never turn my back on them. 

Journal for Saturday june 27th

Move in Day.

Today is the day our new home actually feels like home. We have been living in our house in Springfield since June 5th with only my bed room furniture a TV in the living room a futon for my roommate to sleep on. MY roommate’s family went to Florida the weekend we moved in for two whole weeks and of course she was the one with everything. Today we woke up at 8 am to prepare for the arrival of the family. We knew we were going to be getting of lifting on so we ate a good breakfast and mentally prepared our self for the day. Because after a full day of moving we both had to work at 5 until close. So around 10:30 the parents arrived in a big U-Haul packed full. I am not over exaggerating when I day you couldn’t fit another thing in there. We spent 2 hours just unloading the trailer and trying to fit it all in the living room and on our front porch. When my roommate told me she had a lot of things she was not over exaggerating either. She had 2 big white fluffy couches for us, a dining room table all of her bed room furniture, 2 big chairs a desk and boxes and boxes of decorations. Her family had just re decorated there house the year before and were saving everything because they thought they were getting lake house and ended up not getting one so Chelsea ended up with everything. The day was full of jokes and lots of nose sweet. I and Chelsea never really knew how strong we were until we carried every single thing off that tailor with very little help from her step dad. We did meet our neighbors across the street that day as well. She came over and brought us fresh cold lemonade with a card that had her number on it just in case we ever needed anything. We both told her we were taking it online this summer, and come to find out she is actually an English teacher at MSU. 

I think that’s about it for today. 

Madison 

journal entry #1 June 26

This being my first journal entry I had a little trouble coming up with what I was going to say. After thinking about it for a while I decided for the first one I am just going to write about my day. 

So to start off my roommate went home to St. Louis for the week, which meant I was home alone and I am a total chick when it comes to staying by myself, so thank fully for me my cousin could is only 9 days older than me has a house down here in Springfield as well so I was lucky enough to be able to stay with her this week. Moving on to the start of my day was when I first alarm clock went off at 8:30, that’s when I planned to get up, because I told myself I was going to shower before work today. Of course I ended up settling with an eh I’ll be fine if I don’t shower today and ended up snoozing my alarm 500 times and to finally wake up at 9:30. After waking up way later than I wanted I rushed out of my cousin’s house over to mine to get ready, and of course right when I got home it started raining. I am not a morning person and I already hate to work in the morning, but especially when it’s raining. Rainy days make me want to just lay in bed and bend watch Netflix all day. I slowly got ready dreading the day to come knowing I had to work a double. By the time I was finished getting ready it was still raining and I ran out to my car as quick as possible trying to dodge the rain drops. As I drove to work the rain got harder and harder and I was not looking forward to the run from my car into work. When I arrived at Colton’s the rain had slowed down a little and by one the sun was shining and we started to get busier. I am a server, so even though its stressful when were busy it’s also my favorite time because the busier we are the more money I can make! I finally got cut today around 2 just in time for a 3 hour break until I am right back in the same place until 10. 

I think that’s all. 

Madison 

I believe

I believe Father's Day will be busy at work. Today was father's day and it was really busy. I made a lot of money. I had to work a double and I was so tired at the end of the day. Working isn't so bad though because I work with my best friend Chelsea. She's also my roommate and she lives in the room right next to mine. We share a bathroom. We work together at Colton's Steakhouse and Chels is a hostess. She gives me good tables and helps me when I need it. I could talk about her for days lol. I hope that she reads this sometime. Not that she would ever look at my blog because who would unless you're in this class right? I don't know what to say any morse... Yeah so father's day was crazy! I called my dad this morning before I went into work and told him that I loved him and Happy Father's  Day and today there were so many big tops of huge families coming in. I really like serving there and I love all the people I work with. Sometimes it can be really stressful though. Like today. Today was one of those days. Today was one of those stressful days. Today was one of those really stressful days where you want to pull your hair out and go cry in the bathroom. I hope no one ever reads this  I feel like the things I'm saying are embarrassing and who would want to read this? I'm so sorry if you're reading this. Today was payday! Yay! Maybe tomorrow I will go shopping or something. How was your father's day? Did you spend it with your dad? Did you guys go out to eat? If you did I hope you were nice to the server. I understand if people can't tip well and stuff, but when we're super busy and I have so many tables and the customers are angry with me when I'm doing my best, I don't like that. Be nice to servers! I have no idea what else to say. I didn't get my dad a father's day gift but I did send him a card. Me and Chelsea got cards and sent them to our dads. I'm repeating the words I keep typing. I am typing I am typing I am typing I still have a minute to go. What do I talk about? I really like free writing but I have no idea what else to say... Well Bye

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I believe

I believe I am a good friend
I believe I am fun to be around
I believe in god
I believe I am good at math
I believe i struggle with English
i believe this class will help me
I believe i am a good server
I believe i am a good person
I believe in myself
I believe i wouldn't survive without spell check
I believe i will be a teacher when i finish school
I believe in friends before boy friends
I believe no one should be judged
I believe in second chances
I believe i am very loud
I believe i laugh too much
I believe in my family
I believe i am a good sister
I believe i am a good daughter
I believe in karma
i believe in hard work
I believe respect can get you far in life
i believe in being honest
i believe that no one is perfect
I believe in good people
i believe in freedom
i believe i am very fortunate
i believe there is no food in my fridge
i believe fathers day will be crazy at my work
i believe everyone has something to offer in life
i believe i am very tired
i believe in having morals
i believe i can always do better
i believe in you

Jung Typology reflection

I've always know that my personality is an Extrovert, I have always been the one to speak up in any public setting or express my voice and option to anyone. I know I am a very opinionated person who is loud and out spoken. I am also a loving and compassionate person, I never like to see my loved ones sad or angry and if I do I always try my best to do whatever it is to fix it. I also always know when something is wrong or not going right. I can read people better than I can read a book, I notice people’s behaviors and what they say, and I like to think I am always one step ahead of people.  I am also I person who doesn’t like to be alone I am content being around people at all times and I don’t need much alone time. When I took the Jung Typology test my results were 100% extravert which I completely knew, and I think that will really help me in my writing by making it more real. I’m not afraid to speak or write how I feel which I feel can make me a better writer all together.